Trying to find myself...

First of all,Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims and happy Holiday. As usual, its been ages since my last post..my English is getting rusty and I cant seem to find a way to fix it..

Without realizing,its already at the end of August. It is hard to believe how fast time past us....Today is the second day of Ramadhan, Im still trying to get use with the fasting.
Wake up at 5 and bertahan for the rest of the day will be my daily routine..As there is no eating and drinking required throughout the day for this month, I think that many people including myself will have so much time thinking about themselves, their assignments and etc.This is the time when we think,analyzing and figuring out about our self that we never have a chance to think of.

I let myself loose last semester, and the consequences, I tend to withdraw myself from the person I used to be...It felt very empty,like I have no purpose in life...I do thing because of I want to do things..study just to study..even when there are so many test and assignment to submit, I have no fear or worry...I just make it all done...

What have I become??? I take things for granted,enjoying life without limits,wasting money,I dont read novels anymore, I am not that tidy freak anymore.. I dont believe in anything..is like I live just because Im alive...

Sometimes my heart hurts and i dont know why...sometimes i feel like crying...sometimes i feel numb...

So im trying to pick up every piece of me that were thrown away...
I will believe in God and myself that life is meaningful...there is something there for me..

InsyaAllah...

Marhoney