how does it feel to have someone u care so much doesnt care about any of ur feeling,,,,

i read one in my friend's blog and I felt so drenge with her feelings..it is probably because I have felt the same way too..so i dedicated this to that someone~

dear ****,
why do you have to act like that? In what way,by doing that, makes you happy and gives u peace? When you feel hurt about something and someone, you blame it on others that has nothing to do with it.When you feel like saying anything, you just burst it out without thinking how it may hurt someone.You always say something but dont really mean it. You always think that a MALE or MAN is someone you cant live without.You always imitate everything I am that you make them yours (and never really confess about it) and you blame me for having things that is similar to u (where it was me that have the things at the first place), You always be kind for a reason, you are so selfish when it comes to study,You always assumed that people are weird where in fact you r the one who is weird.You cant live without the love of a man. You scolded me about this boy but never ever look at yourself.You said that do take syafiq for his look but you never think that for yourself, you even saud to me that you like those boys because of their look.You said that you never have friend like us before but actually you act exactly like what you have said.You never reply any messages when it is not important.You always kept it for the boys that dont really treat you right.You always cried on boys on one night and love them on the next day. I am so confused about that. You said you cant have if a boy have someone else besides u but u do that to them.Just think why no one ever really love you that he wants to have you as his wife.

I really care about you and i want to make this work...BUt i do have limits, people around you do have limits as well.Enough is enough.You can just simply do want you want just because they are you freinds. Open your eyes and realize that no one can always stand with your mood swings. Believe in people that they do that because they care about u...but you have to care about their feeling as well.. You always try to make yourself heal from the pain that u have with the boys that you forget about people around u.I want to help you get trough all this but you have to let me in.You just hold one persons hand and you let go my hand and the others that really care about you as well...

I am very hurt and sometimes I hate you that i feel like leaving u there alone...but i know I am responsible to u...because you are my freind....God will repay us later and He,The Allmighty is fair.


I sorry for this very emotional write up..hehe..I need let go of some feelings...